Wow, it has been a couple of months since I last wrote. I am sorry
for the delay. A lot has happened since I have been back in the states. I
have had a lot on my mind and my heart. I have been heavy burdened for
several things. God has been showing me a lot since I have been back. I
have experienced some of my lowest of lows and I have experienced some
highs.
Today marks two months since I left Honduras.
June 20, 2012 was a very sad and hard day for me. I knew leaving and
saying goodbye would be hard, but I never imagined it to be as hard as
it was and as it has been. I have had days where I would lay in bed and
cry. I have had days where I would laugh and smile. It has been hard
adjusting back to life here. I gained friendships and relationships that
will last a lifetime. My Honduran friends will always be in my heart. I
wish so badly to be with them right now, but I know that God has me
where I am for a purpose. God will allow me to see them again one day
and I can not wait for that day.
Coming home to the
states I was planing on starting classes about a week after I returned
home, but God had something different planned. As I have expressed, I
had a very hard time adjusting back to life here. I went back to
Tuscaloosa for classes and had no desire or any thought of doing
classes. My mind was not in the right place or time for me to be able to
take two classes. I was unable to focus. So I withdrew from the classes
and started working at the daycare full time. Then a shocking life
change happened. My sweet Meme went to be with the Lord on July 8, 2012.
It was shocking, because we didn't expect this to happen. She had been
doing pretty well and all of a sudden God called her home to be with
Him. My family and I went through a rough time. I know she is now
praising her Savior and she is the happiest and peaceful she has been
and ever will be. But there is still that pain of not having her HERE
with us. has been very hard on my mother. Please continue to lift our
family up in your prayers.
Coming home has been
difficult, but God knew all this was going to be part of my trial of
returning home. He knew I was going to face these things. He has been
preparing me for this for a long time. I honestly never thought I would
go through something so hard when I first returned, but God was showing
me things that I look back now and say..."WOW!" God is truly amazing how
he works.
One thing God has been showing and teaching
me for a long time, but has really been pushing it on me this summer
was "There is a timing for Everything". I know and have always heard
"God's timing is perfect timing", but God has really been pushing this
on me and showing this to me a lot since June 20. Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 is
perfect scripture for this. I read over this passage of scripture
yesterday in Sunday school. God spoke to me in a powerful way. I have
not been able to stop thinking about this passage.
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
